It's been a li'l bit since my last post, I know. Like I'd expressed with how things had effected me, it's been a li'l struggle tryin' to get my head right and heart where it should be.
That is, bein' fearless.
I can't live in fear of what may become of my illness or self. I can't live in fear of the outcome the doctors project. I can't live in fear of what may cause my feet to stumble next. I can't live in the fear of doubt in my own strength, that I won't be able to get through my fight for livin'(whether sick or not). I can't live in fear that I'm not worthy of a miraculous healin' that may very well not come, leavin' me to accept, fearlessly, my fate. I can't live in fear that I'm not good enough under others' observations. I can't live in the fear that will lead me into the paralytic effects of anxiety that catches my breath and scares me nearly to death. I can't live in fear of the demons that plague my mind with nightmares, always tauntin' me with bad memories of my past. I can't live with the fear that I'll never find happiness among the dreary, monotonous life that seems to surround me with great distress. I can't live with the fear that abandonment will befall me again or that I'll give into that which calls me to runaway. I can't live in fear of the shame which causes me to lose faith in His grace.
No, I must cast this all aside in rebuke, claimin' that through His power I can soar on wings of the eagles and rise above all that which tries to strike me down from every angle. I will not feel the hell fire that seeks to destroy my soul, my spirit. Every fear that tries to take hold, I have to believe is lying. I must believe in His truth, His love, His healin', His peace and that He can replenish my Joy and restore my strength.
Please, rest in this knowledge, as well. You are formidable, powerful and capable of inspirin' fear to flee.
Here's a song that speaks against the fears we all feel and have to fight.
P.S. - thank you, my reader from Ukraine.
Copyright November 5th, 2018 owned by C.L. Chapps